THE DIRTY SACRIFICE

"Don't turn your face towards the door and your back on me.
Well if you do, after all we've been through
You will never get another chance to do it again;
But just know this,
You will never find someone like me."
She said to me.

My feet became as heavy as lead,
My eyes pale, my heart heavy.
But I left though,
I protected you from me, from the beast in me.

Today I rue every mistakes,
For there are wrongs I should have done right,
I see the world through troubled eyes.
I have this yearn for righteousness
A burning desire for justice
But I often end up doing what I do not love and I can't resist it.
It is the beast in me.
But life's a bitch
And we are the dick strolling her stinky cunt.
We are our own misfortunes,
Our own ills or good.
We chose to be man or the beast in us.

I will only give you the word I swallowed then today.
"I do not deserve you.
Because I have fallen in love with what is wrong
And in this disease I will die.
I would have died many years ago,
I will not rue dying again;
Again? Then I will have to die twice
For this my life means death.

But you? Please stay alive.
Don't get involved in my condemnation
Don't get infected by my virus... "